Category: Writers Block
I hope that THIS MESSAGE is an ACTUAL INSPIRATION to YOU, THE READER, as it is to ME, as I'm experiencing the AFTERMATH of an unmentioned experience that's DEFINITELY "GIVEN ME A NEW LEASE ON LIFE," so to speak, that's DEFINITELY DESTINED to be ABSOLUTELY LIFE-LONG, and that I CERTAINLY PRAYERFULLY ask MY LORD, SAVIOR, AND NUMBER ONE BEST FRIEND, JESUS, to WALK, as well as TALK, the VERY ABSOLUTE INTEGRITY OF THIS VERY NEW LIFE, to the ABSOLUTE FULLEST, and that YOU, YOURSELF, might be EVER SO LOVINGLY MOVED to want THE VERY SAME, in whatever situational aspect of YOUR life ...
ANYWAY, if you've checked out any of my OTHER board-posted topics, and you've come across any of those, targetting who I'VE called "IGNORANTS," have been ONLY ANGER-GENERATED, and that if AN ACTUAL WAR might've been caused, as the VERY RESULT of my OUT-AND-OUT EXPLOSIVE STATEMENTS, I would've been just PERFECTLY FINE, so long as I wasn't backfired on (I AND MINE, that was). AS A TOTAL CONTRAST, I would like (LOVE, that is) to share with you what I'm STILL learning about what I'M being familiarized with, as the "THREE-CHOICE RESPONSE," which are either PROACTIVE, REACTIVE, OR SUBJECTIVE. EITHER CHOICE results in whatever outcome that could be POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE, and ONLY WE can make EITHER DECISION, considering that we've been AUTOMATICALLY EQUIPPED with FREE WILL.
LET'S DISSECT this "THREE-CHOICE-RESPONSE" factor, as EACH PART is CAREFULLY EXAMINED, EXPLANATORILY. Unlike the above, LET'S START WITH "REACTIVE," as being the FIRST of the three. For the LONGEST, MY dealing with the general sighted public, whenever it was a matter of EQUAL-INTERACTION, challenging the ABSOLUTE EXISTENCE of "IGNORANCE," it's ALWAYS been a "REACTIVE" response, which meant that I was like a "WARRING BLOODHOUND," seeking out my victim, ALWAYS READY TO POUNCE at ANYONE'S INDICATING ANYTHING that even SOUNDED "IGNORANT," without ANY GUARANTEE of being "ON THE MONEY," whether I ACTUALLY WAS OR WASN'T--again, if you were to read any of my posts that were set up as DIRECT TARGETS, you will, NOT ONLY SEE, HEAR, but DEFINITELY FEEL, EXPERIENCIALLY, THE VERY HEIGHT AND DEPTH of the VERY SOLE INTENT to ACTUALLY OVERTHROW the VERY SOURCE that can ONLY BE OVERTHROWN BY GOD, AND HE, ALONE; ever since I was cleared as a free (independent) traveler, with the "MARCHING ORDERS" given to "EDUCATE THE PUBLIC," along with "HEAR-SAID" examples of how the general public would express their "IGNORANCE" in various forms, which would ignite the VERY FIRE OF BLATANT DEFIANCE in ME, with the exception of, what SEEMED like for a time, "THE EYE OF THE STORM," it was NOTHING LESS than an OUT-OF-CONTROL ROLLER-COASTER RIDE, which FINALLY SPIRALED DOWNWARD, FAST AND FURIOUS; within recent years, NOT A DAY WENT BY that I wasn't DESPERATELY CHALLENGING SOMEBODY, WITH ALL BARRELS BLAZING, with the VERY FIRE that just WOULDN'T BE SUBMERGED, because even with FEEBLE ATTEMPTS to TRY to gain SOME GROUND, if not either MOST, OR ALL, self-control, the VERY THOUGHT of EVER FACING the VERY NON-INTENTENDING to COMPROMISE MY POSITION was JUST TOO MUCH for me to take, THROWING ME EVEN FURTHER into an even WORSE TAIL-SPIN than the LAST, and as far as the PHYSICAL AFFECTS, there were moments that I was under SO MUCH STRESS, which PROBABLY EXPLAINS why I have MOSTLY WHITE HAIR, so I was told, although WITHOUT AS MUCH, or ANY STRESS-INDUCING FACTOR OF THIS MATTER, I STILL might've JUST ONLY GRAYED EARLIER, without AS MUCH, OR ANY, WHITE thrown in, at MY current age, that I'd feel as though I'd have a heart attack AT ANY SECOND, LET ALONE MINUTE, not to EVER EVEN FORGET the VERBAL/PHYSICAL ALTERCATIONS that were the ABSOLUTE RULE OF THE DAY, and although LUCKILY, noone was SERIOUSLY, or even BARELY MINORLY HURT, PHYSICALLY, it was, FOR THE MOST PART, an even draw, as far as VERBAL was concerned, and whenever there WERE those moments when either I or my "UNOFFICIAL OPPONENT" would lose a battle of CHARGED WORDS, ESPECIALLY when the one that I would challenge would QUICKLY DISAPPEAR, as their ONLY DEFENSE against my WRATH-FILLED RESPONSE to THEIR initial approach, VENGENCE was DEFINITELY EMINENT, although chances NEVER guaranteed the opportunity of meeting up with that SAME PERSON OF OPPOSITION, but the VERY PATTERN OF THE VERY SAME OPPOSITION would be the ONLY DIRECT CONTACT, as ANY OF THOSE that were AUTOMATICALLY HEMMED, according to MY prejudice, would be the "DIRECT RECIPPIENTS" of ANY EXPEDIENT "CORRECTION OF THEIR IGNORANT WAYS." What would designate ANYONE as an "UNOFFICIAL OPPONENT" would be the result of THEIR reaction to MY being blind, as either MINIMALLY, MOSTLY, or TOTALLY CLUELESS, INTENTIONALLY OR NOT, unbenounced to ME, as to the ABSOLUTE INTEGRITY of the FULL-FUNCTIONAL CAPACITY, as such to ANY ABLE-BODIED SIGHTED PERSON, 20-20, or otherwise. Although I maintained a CALLOUS, UNFORGIVING POSITION of prejudice, in order to attempt to "COVER MY ASS," I would ALWAYS PREFACE in my BLATANT "IGNORANTS ATTACK" that "not ALL sighted (20-20, ESPECIALLY) are ignorant."
THAT, if not in FULL, might've taken care of MOST of the explaining of the "REACTIVE" portion of our DISSECTIVE LOOK at this "three-choice response," and the OBVIOUS FACT is that EACH CHOICE represents THREE OBVIOUS POINTS: a beginning, a middle, and an end--the "REACTIVE" that contacts its own kind, is the cause of friction that the opposing sides are in a fiery "do-or-die" war.
ANOTHER of the three, so's to jump from one extreme, DIRECTLY TO THE OTHER, is the VERY OPPOSITE CHOICE of "THE REACTIVE," known as "THE SUBJECTIVE." CASE SCENARIO: I mentioned this in ANOTHER board topic about a friend of mine, who's totally blind all his life, that will BLUNTLY remark, "I expect to be taken care of, SIMPLY because I'm blind." He'll waste absolutely NO TIME, after boarding either a bus or train, to loudly announce, in this SAD-SING-SONG-"PITY-CALL" VOICE: "SEATS FOR THE HANDICAPPED!" He happens to be gay, and is actively involved, monogamously, with a 20-20-sighted lover, that DEFINITELY FITS the VERY DIRECT PROFILE OF IGNORANCE, to the ABSOLUTE LETTER, and is OVERALL CONTROLLING, but EVEN MORESO, of his "BLIND PUPPET" of a lover, and HE, the "GOOD, LITTLE, OBEDIENT, BLIND MAN" is the very DOCILE, VULNERABLE, EASILY-MANIPULATED, EASILY-ACCOMODATING PUSH-OVER that he could JUST AS EASILY REVERSE, but INADVERTENTLY CHOOSES NOT TO, for fear that he'd be either IMMEDIATELY, or EVENTUALLY, dismissed.
BASICALLY, the WHOLE POINT is what I've been saying ALL ALONG: the "SUBJECTIVE" behavior is JUST AS LIFE-DESTRUCTIVE as "THE REACTIVE." Neither are behaviors of one whose a TOTALLY SECURE INDIVIDUAL, which DEFINITELY would leave one at the mercy of the VERY OPPOSITION, and the ULTIMATE CONSEQUENCE, IF NOT STOPPED IN TIME, is that EITHER BEHAVIOR, IF ALLOWED, will drive one TOTALLY BEYOND THE POINT OF NO RETURN. DEFINITELY BEWARE!
NOW, for the GRAND FINALE, the VERY LIGHT at the VERY END of this DARK, DISMAL TUNNEL OF EITHER EXTREMES, is the VERY ABSOLUTE, TOTALLY DISINVOLVED MIDDLE, called "THE PROACTIVE." How THIS works is that the VERY FIRST-AND-FOREMOST RECOGNITION that's to be WHOLE-HEARTEDLY ACKNOWLEDGED, is that "GOD, AND HE, ALONE, only gives us the strength to OVERCOME, but ONLY HE is the VERY ABSOLUTE POWER, WITH TOTAL AUTHORITY, to OVERTHROW IGNORANCE. THIS would PROBABLY explain the TRUE INTEGRITY of the meaning of "THE SERENITY PRAYER: ""GOD, grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I CANNOT change, the (MY OWN input) responsibility for those of which I CAN, and YOUR DIVINE WISDOM to know the difference."" To break it ALL DOWN, the ONLY one/ones that God has given US the authority to change, is face-to-face with us on the opposite side of ANY MIRROR, and the ONLY WAY to keep OUR HEAD above water is to THOROUGHLY REALIZE that THEIR RESPONSE, whether REACTIVE, SUBJECTIVE, OR PROACTIVE, to OUR BEING BLIND, and THEIR BEING SIGHTED, is absolutely NO MORE OF ANY DIFFERENCE-MAKER
than ANY OTHER RESPONSIVE BEHAVIOR. EXAMPLE: unlike my friend that I told you about, should ANYONE seek to "ACCOMODATE" me, PRIMARILY, IF NOT ONLY, because I'm blind, it's DEFINITELY NOT ANY OF MY CONCERN to DISCOURAGE their behavior, FULLY AWARE of the VERY UNMISTAKABLE FACT that NOT ONLY would I NOT be responsible for ENCOURAGING such, THIS VERY SAME "SUCH" would be what I'd NEVER WANNA ENCOURAGE, EITHER, so EVEN IF I DO accept their "MISCONCEPTED ACCOMODATION/ACCOMODATIONS, it would be MY DECISION, AND MINE, ONLY, to make, which would be the ONLY REFLECTION OF ME, NOT, I REPEAT, N-O-T, NOT THEIR MISCONCEPTED ACCOMODATION/ACCOMODATIONS. With THIS attitude of "NO DISCOURAGING OF WHAT I'D NEVER WANNA ENCOURAGE AND WOULDN'T" that GOD has given me to practice on a LIFE-LONG BASIS, DEFINITELY GUARANTEES to keep me from getting into the VERY CONFLICT, INDUCED BY IMPULSIVITY, that puts me where I DON'T wanna be, in the end.
This is okay, I think you did well.
Considering the overlooked typoes, and I'm REALLY CONSIDERING, AS WELL, re-posting it AGAIN, either on THIS board or ANOTHER, after EXTREME CAREFUL "PROOFREADING," if you will, I DEFINITELY INTEND for this message, IF THE LORD WILLS IT, to make a "GIGANTALISTICAL" DIFFERENCE--LET'S BE ABSOLUTELY ON THE REAL: ignorance is DEFINITELY an unwelcomed substance that will ALWAYS be unwelcomed; on the other HAND, though, NEITHER SHOULD "MILITANCE." I have DEFINITELY LEARNED that the ONLY WAY to DISARM ignorance IS, like I said in the above, NOT TO DISCOURAGE what you ABSOLUTELY REFUSE TO ENCOURAGE, so that CONSEQUENTLY, one's ignorant interaction with YOU would be TOTALLY, PERMINENTLY (as long as you maintain this attitude) IMPACTLESS on YOU. Treat this as though you're getting CONSTANT, OBNOXIOUS TELEMARKETING CALLS. The way to NOT discourage their NEVER-ENCOURAGED CALLS would be to tell them EACH TIME: "Call back tomorrow," and hang up; you're NOT being rude, PLUS, you're ALSO not engaging in any conversation with them--not to say that you COULDN'T, because I have, MYSELF; the ONLY THING is, MY conversations with them didn't result in MY discouraging THEM, but THEY, discouraging THEMSELVES from CONTINUING the VERY-MUCH-TO-THEIR-ABSOLUTE-DISSATISFACTION conversation, BY HANGING UP, THEMSELVES--THAT'S ALWAYS FUN (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)!!!!! MEANWHILE, I'M the one, THROUGHOUT AND AFTER this episode, MAINTAINING that VERY SAME FREEDOM from the burden of "POLITE REJECTION, IN A TWISTED WAY," and THEY WEREN'T. Now, how THIS VERY SAME METHOD applies in THIS case, is that there JUST MIGHT BE one, whether 20-20-sighted, or otherwise, that SOMEHOW might sense that it would DEFINITELY be a TOTAL WASTE of THEIR effort, energy, etc., to "SPECIAL-ACCOMODATE" where NO SUCH is even LOOKED for, but IF AT ALL RECEIVED, it's with a TOTALLY DISINVOLVED RECEPTION--for example: let's say that you go to someone's house, who DOES have the BLATANT, FULL AUTHORITY to COMPLETELY BAN YOU, but DOESN'T, although when you DO get there, and you're not chased AWAY, neither are you ACKNOWLEDGED--you're just THERE, until YOU, AND YOU, ALONE, decide to leave, TOTALLY ON YOUR OWN RECOGNANCES. THAT is the VERY SAME ATTITUDE OF TREATMENT for handling "COMPENSATIVE/CUSTODIAL/OTHER-LIKEWISE-ILK HELP." THAT'S what I mean by: "NOT TO DISCOURAGE what I would DEFINITELY NEVER ENCOURAGE," and although THEY have the decision to make, ON THEIR OWN, to either STOP OR CONTINUE, YOU, MEANWHILE, would either INSTANTLY, SHORTLY, or EVENTUALLY, depending on YOUR WILLINGNESS to "LET GO AND LET GOD," render TOTALLY IMMUNE to REACT, which is what SUSTAINS the ignorance, in the FIRST place, and INSTEAD, PROACT, which is what DEPRIVES it, AND THAT, WITHOUT ANY REMEDY, WHATSOEVER!
So, You like disappointing people? Well, that's very unsensetive. Even if they pester you, you know, it's never cool to be rude or rude in a nice way.
Are you suggesting, then (which I'd NEVER do, of course), that I do what the friend of mine that I earlier described does?
NOW, if ANYONE is suggesting that I "respond on behalf of the one that FEELS that they DO need the type of attention that I'm neither discouraging nor encouraging, by ACTUALLY ENCOURAGING IT FOR MYSELF, ANYWAY, for fear that THEY would be rejected by the VERY ONE/ONES that I take for granted, whether they're rejected or not, POLITELY, you might as well suggest that God and Satan resolve their difference and become, ETERNALLY, the VERY BEST OF FRIENDS, and wait for THAT to happen, AS WELL, while you're at it ...
I should've kept this ALL IN ONE POSTING, but what the heck ... if you're ALSO suggesting that I'm to say "THANK YOU," instead of "THAT'S OK, I'M GOOD," or whatever ANY OTHER TOTALLY DISINVOLVED RESPONSE, may I repeat what I IMMEDIATELY-ABOVE SUGGESTED--as long as I'm not STARTING, or ADDING to ANY ALREADY-STARTED CONFLICT, NO MATTER HOW INTENSE THE IGNORANCE, and as I wasn't the one with MY hand out, FIGURATIVELY, FOR that type of "ILK" response, but ARBITRARILY on the part of the "OFFERER" to be on this "GOOD-DEED" mission, as soon as the "BLIND ALARM" is activated in HIS/HER HEAD, AND THAT, ALONE, TOTALLY EXEMPTS ME from the "THANKSGIVING REQUIREMENT" on MY end.
I thought I posted, but blah...
Anyways, don't let them hurt you and put you down, but try to be polite, but honest with your decline.
Well, as "THICK-SKINNED" as I've been referred to as being, it's VIRTUALLY IMPOSSIBLE for ANYONE to do THAT, but I THOROUGHLY AGREE WITH YOU about being HONEST, AS WELL AS POLITE, when declining their approach--BASICALLY, it's what I've been indicating ALL ALONG, during this post. THAT'S WHY, as I said by my NOT DISCOURAGING what I would NEVER ENCOURAGE, I would have ABSOLUTELY NO PROBLEM with BEING AS POLITE, AS I WOULD BE HONEST, when giving their approach the "THUMBS-DOWN" RESPONSE, PROACTIVELY.
Now, DEFINITELY MUCH TO THE PERHAPS "MOANS AND GROANS" of those that MIGHT have an issue with what I'm about to do, at the same time that I have this topic running HERE, I made a copy (minus the topic responses) of this VERY MESSAGE for a "CREATIVE WRITING" class that I CURRENTLY take, WEEKLY, and AS WAS SUGGESTED, I'm REVISING THIS MESSAGE, and will re-post it, and the reason for revision is because I wasn't specific, when mentioning ignorance, so I hope that THIS time, I'll've done better about that. In FACT, I'll "PREVIEW" before posting, OFFICIALLY, JUST TO MAKE SURE that if there are ANY KINKS, AT ALL, that they're ALL ironed out.